14/01/2018

OUTFIT | BAD INFLUENCE


J'ai toujours eu peur de rencontrer les parents de mes potes. Jusqu'à aujourd'hui c'est quelque chose qui m'angoisse. Même avec les parents qui me connaissent bien. Parfois je préférais attendre mes potes dans la rue, limite en me cachant, que de sonner chez eux et de devoir parler à leurs parents. Pourquoi? Parce que j'avais peur qu'ils me perçoivent comme la nana qui a mauvaise influence sur leurs enfants. J'avais l'impression qu'ils voyaient clairs dans mon jeu quand je venais chercher mes potes avant d'aller en soirée, qu'ils savaient qu'il y aurait de l'alcool, possiblement de la drogue, des garçons, des filles, des personnes peu fréquentables, qu'on allait faire des conneries en soit. Et j'avais peur qu'ils assimilent le développement de pratiques déviantes à mon arrivée dans la vie de leurs enfants. Alors qu'en fait, on ne va pas se mentir, même si j'avais un comportement "déviant", bien souvent, mes potes m'entraînaient dans des plans bien plus craignos que dans des trucs que j'aurais pu proposer. Comme n'importe quel ado, j'ai cherché et testé mes limites, souvent en faisant des choses borderline dangereuses. Mais je ne pense pas avoir vraiment été une mauvaise influence sur quelqu'un. Au contraire, bien souvent j'ai été la voix de la raison - un peu casse couille - quand je sentais qu'une situation tournait au vinaigre. Et pourtant je n'arrive pas à me défaire de ce sentiment que peut-être les parents de me pote me perçoivent comme une mauvaise influence. Le pire, c'est que je suis consciente qu'ils pensent tout le contraire de ça. Mais j'ai toujours cette boule au ventre quand je les rencontre, comme si sur mon front il y avait écrit en énorme, en rouge: "mauvaise influence".


Sweat-shirt WEEKDAY / Pants H&M / Shoes T.U.K. Footwear

Armelle De Oliveira
Photos: Syana

07/01/2018

MUSIC | FALL 2017 PLAYLIST

Enter Shikari - The Revolt Of The Atoms


After months of mastering the art of teasing, Enter Shikari finally released their new album "The Spark". It is clearly a new beginning for the band who left behind its screamo/electronica vibe to go towards something more pop but not mainstream pop, more like 80s pop. It sounds like Depeche Mode had some weird baby with . Lyrically, Rou Reynolds is still there to put us in a revolutionary mood, to feel empowered in changing the world (I mean fucking listen to "Take My Country Back" and tell me you're not ready to fuck shit up!). I finally got to see them live in early December, I was front row, determined to make eye contact with the members of the band who helped me go through very tough times ("Undercover Agents" came out at the time I was really struggling with social media and I felt understood thanks to the lyrics). It was absolutely terrific but a little bit too short and not enough interaction with the audience. I definitely want to catch them in a festival to hear them play their biggest hits. Especially since I fell in love all over again with old tunes I forgot about while prepping for the show, tunes including "We Can Breathe In Space", "Quelle Surprise" and other bangers from "Take It To The Skies" and "A Flash Flood Of Colour".

I See Stars - Ten Thousand Feet


Spotify sensed my love for emo and added this song to my Daily Mix and I absolutely L O V E it. It has this Asking Alexandria vibe and the teenage-like voice is everything. I feel grown up but like a teenager still. This song sure gives me moshpit envies, no matter my age.

While She Sleeps - Hurricane


More emo songs thanks to Spotify ! I mean the lyrics, the A7X voice plus that vintage Escape The Fate-like guitar line brings me back straight to 2006. Too bad the lyrics still speak to me ten years later.

Post Malone - rockstar ft. 21 Savage


I discovered that song on Spotify and immediately loved the vibe and the instrumental. I had no idea it was the biggest hit at the moment until I saw everybody using it on Instagram ha I'm so disconnected from mainstream music (says the girl who adds mainstream songs to her playlist). Plus I just found out the singer is a white dude. I pictured him more like Future in my head hahaha

OrelSan - Basique


Ok. Let's take one minute just to mention how astonishing this video is. And shoutout to whoever did this instrumental. Thank you Orelsan for making me shake my booty on such depressing lyrics. I miss Stromae.

Lomepal - Yeux Disent


French rap is dominated by white boys and their fragility really speak to my heart. I always said I like myself some white mama's boy who pretends he's from the hood...

Disiz - Menteur Menteuse


I told you last season that I fell in love with Disiz new album which many people disliked for some reason... This song was my go-to shower song. I almost used the lyrics to fill the legend of my Instagram pictures but I'm not that girl. Or am I ?


Corneille - Avec Classe


My interest in rediscovering French music led me to rekindle my love for French r'n'b like songs from Corneille. However, this video is wrong on so many levels. Hello street harassment ! So many videos glamorised this behavior back then...

Petit Biscuit - Sunset Lover (Clement Bazin Remix)


At some point I had to mourn summer and this was pretty useful. French electronic music never ceases to amaze me to be honest.

Mura Masa - Messy Love


Mourning summer is also easier with Mura Masa. But can summer come back now ? I'll keep playing this song, I swear !

Baba Stiltz - Baby


Another song for summer mourning. You're welcome.

Hans Zimmer - True Romance Main Theme


I watched True Romance last month. It was considered a cult 90s movie recommended by Vogue editors so I thought I would give it a shot as the TV shows I am watching are oh so boring. A what a movie it was ! The story is completely fucked up but the general vibe is so light. As light as this soundtrack which feels like spending Christmas somewhere exotic. Magical !


Clean Bandit - Rockabye ft. Sean Paul and Anne-Marie


I shazamed this song in Monki, Westfield Stratford, fitting rooms. Sean Paul is old and so am I.


Michael Jackson feat. Janet Jackson - Scream


Between Halloween and Zendaya looking like a Jackson sibling dressed in aluminum silver for In Style, I had to listen to that song in Fall. Also this videoclip is amazing: the dancing, the acting, the anger, the love between them too and the outfits !

Siouxsie And The Banshees - Cities in Dust


Speaking of Halloween... I discovered this song in one of Urban Outfitters' Halloween playlist and I feel like I missed on life not knowing this song nor this band before.

Lady Gaga - Heavy Metal Lover


I had this argument with my friends over the ranking of Lady Gaga's albums. Here's mine: 1. The Fame; 2. The Fame Monster; 3. ARTPOP. My friend said Born This Way was better than ARTPOP and I was like "na-ha". Born This Way has a few bangers - "Edge of Glory", "Government Hooker", "Americano", "Scheise", "You And I" - but the rest of the songs all sound the same or are pretty boring. But I did give another shot at Born This Way and now "Heavy Metal Lover" is one of my favorites. Still, ARTPOP is better than Born This Way. Period.

Miley Cyrus - Drive


At some point this season, I remembered how much I loved Bangerz when it came out and gave it another listen. This song is so 2013 it hurts.

DUA LIPA - New Rules

I know I'm late at catching this train, I saw Leanne's obsession with this song all summer long but you know how I am when things get overhyped... I'm now super hyped and danced my ass off to this song at my job's Christmas party ! I wish I had Dua Lipa to teach me these rules when boys were playing with me though. Good thing in the end that men are trash and I don't date or try to anymore.

AFI - 17 Crimes


Well... It's not completely true. Do not ask me why but few beers, few shots, and this AFI song I heard twice in my life managed to let down my guard. I'm weak. Especially since when Crashlove came out I absolutely despised it - and I still do - and this song plus its ridiculous video did not get me love. But I keep listening to it now. Maybe just to keep in touch with that night's feeling.


A$AP Rocky - L$D


Just hold me. I do not need beer or tequila shot to let down my guard with this track I rediscovered in an Urban Outfitters playlist. A$ap is not a very good looking guy but daaaamn that sex appeal. HOLD. ME.

Childish Gambino - Redbone


The first week-end after I moved back to London, I went to a screening of Get Out followed by a Q&A. I completely forgot that this song was in the movie. It makes me want to cook for my boyfriend on a cold winter Sunday morning and then cuddle under warm blankets. But I can't cook and I don't have a boyfriend so... I guess I'll just rewatch Donald's performance on The Tonight Show.

Talking Heads - Psycho Killer


For some reason, many people when I tell them I'm French instantaneously start singing this song. Is there an international urban legend that says you can pick up French girls by whispering "fa fa fa fa" in their ears ? Because, I mean, NO.

2017 Spotify year in music

My favorite artists were Enter Shikari (duh) Lady Gaga, Bring Me The Horizon, oh hello Avril Lavigne and frog prince Ed Sheeran. Favorite songs and I'm a proud are "Never Enough" by One Direction (my good mood song), "Supercharge" by Enter Shikari, "Touch" by Little Mix, "Rabble Rouser" by Enter Shikari; and Don Broco's "Everybody". Spotify says I listened to music for 42 271 minutes, played 4 283 songs by 2 037 different artists and even though it seems I'm into any kind of pop really I explored 51 different music genres. Who's the basic bitch now ?

Armelle De Oliveira