31/01/2018

10 QUESTIONS TO REFLECT ON THE LAST YEAR

I watched Zoe's video with this tag on and decided to give it a go.

1. Where were you this time last year?

This time last year I started working on a big professional project. At the time, I was very happy that my former boss called me to join this very interesting project, I was grateful that I did not even had to look for a job and that I wouldn't have to worry for the next six months. We also had a wonderful news in the family, everyone was excited and genuinely happy.



2. Where are you now?

I am now in London after crying myself to bed for years because I was sad I left the city. I am not as happy as I was last year. The year was tough, the project I worked on drained my energy and left me emotionally vulnerable. Leaving Paris for London in fall was a fresh start but turned into a nightmare. I am only beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I hope everything will be fine in the end. Even though it might mean me going back to Paris.



3. If you could describe the year in three words, what would they be?

As I mentioned earlier, 2017 was tough. It was not completely bad or overwhelmingly good. It was tough. It was enlightening as at age 25 again I got to open my eyes on fake friends and negative people - including family - in my life. I guess this shit never stops. I guess I'll get disappointed by people again in the future. I thought me cutting people out of my life at the first mistake would enable me to keep only the good relationships in my life. But sometimes even these turn sour and that I learnt this year. But on a good note, this year was fun. I got to do stuff outside of my comfort zone, like being a supervisor for teenagers on a ski trip abroad, I backpacked through Bolivia, drank too many tequila shots and spoke Spanish in Barcelona, interviewed people and grow through their stories, learned more about Paris, took over Asos snapchat account for a day, went to Lollapalooza, went on holidays with the fam which did not happen in years, spent hours on Tumblr to send funny stuff to my partner in crime... It was fun. Tough but fun. I would add also that it was pretty quiet. I allowed myself to turn down social gatherings if I did not feel like it and it was amazing. I kind of turned into a grandma, just doing my thing in my bedroom, watching movies, playing The Sims, listening to music and now and then meet up with my hometown friends for wine and cheese. I liked that.



4. What are you grateful for?

I am grateful for work. When I decided to pursue my dream of becoming a journalist, I knew it was part of the deal that I might end up unemployed. But thank God, I've never been in-between jobs for too long - just long enough to go on holidays and play the Sims. And if moving to London is part of the job then it's a dream come true.



5. What goals did you accomplish?

I would say move back to London. It was not something I specifically set up for 2017 but still something that has been on my mind for YEARS. Ever since I left pretty much. Otherwise all the other goals I set up for 2017 failed miserably





6. What goals did you not accomplish?

I did not reach my secret goal to get 5K followers on IG by the 31st of December. That's my biggest disappointment because to be honest I was really close. But then with all the changes in my life in late 2017, I did not had time to post or engage on Instagram anymore. And I did not want to. I was completely confused and rejected social media and its tiring concept of having a perfect life, a perfect house, a perfect job, a perfect lunch, a perfect boyfriend, a perfect dog, a perfect body,  a perfect social life... So I kind of disconnected and then not reached my 5K goal.

7. What brought the most joy in 2017?

This wonderful family news.

8. What new habits have you acquired?

I am not really a girl who has habits. 


9. What old habits are you leaving?

See question 8.

10. What do you want to achieve in 2018?

I did not set myself goals to reach in 2018. I am not good at fulfilling them. I just want to keep doing my thing, being a grandma and carefully selecting the people I allow in my life. 



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Armelle De Oliveira